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Although it - saves money, it's horrible. - </li> - </ul> -<p></p> -<h2 id="tocanch1" class="tvis">"Playing saps the will"</h2> -<p> -The heading is a literal translation of the Chinese idiom 「玩物丧志」. -80% of the parents in China believes in this phrase, mine included. -So I was strictly kept away from most ways of entertainment in my early -years. During this period I developed distinct interests among the age -group such as disassembling gadgets, programming and some music skills. -Also due to the same reason, I've never had or even touched any device whose -sole functionality is gaming (i.e. a gaming console, or even a Tamagotchi). -</p> -<p> -The only way to play video games I was aware of then was to go to a stupid -website within a intranet of my area. There was a deeply hidden link where a -lot of flash games are hosted. There were plenty mockups of the Super Mario -series, 「魔塔」<a id="n1" href="#note1" class="note">[1]</a> -replicas and some strategic games, which definitely contributed to the -shaping of my game preferences. -</p> -<p> -The only non-flash game played by me when I was in the elementary school was -Road Rash 2002. -</p> -<p> -The only non-flash game I played during junior high school was Ballance. -(although I also played a custom map (the tower defense one) for Warcraft -III, a little Red Alert 2 and beat hazard, these never became my dominating -game choice.) I played through the main content in the first month. But as -for the DLC (Level 13, 「速度」/"Sudu"), I didn't pass it until the last day -of Feburary this year. After going through the first 12 levels, I devoted -myself to modding and later, cloning the entire game. I even made a new -but somehow stupid game with the same engine called WHG3D. I still faced the -pressure from my parents because they didn't want me do such "improper -business". -</p> -<p> -Of course I played solitaire and minesweeper, but at this time I wasn't -aware of the actual rules of minesweeper so all I did was clicking randomly. -</p> -<h2 id="tocanch2" class="tvis">Clumsy me</h2> -<p> -After getting into senior high school, and later, the StupiD University, -I got more time of my own. I was able to play more than ever, but suddenly -I found out I was too clumsy to play... -</p> -<p> -I tried... -</p> -<ul> - <li>osu! but I was so clumsy that I couldn't play even with a -touchscreen at the lowest difficulty.</li> - <li>the Touhou project but I am so clumsy that I couldn't even make it -through the normal difficulty of most releases. More on this later.</li> - <li>Minecraft but I was constantly killed by myself using custom potions -</li> - <li>Snakebird but I was so dumb that I couldn't even make it through the -fifth level.</li> - <li>Portal and Portal 2 but I always got stuck in infinite loops.</li> - <li>Neverball but I don't even know how to jump properly.</li> -</ul> -<p> -These games are actually playable for me: -</p> -<ul> - <li>Minesweeper: finally I am not clicking randomly anymore. I tried to -be hardcore at this one but my highscores were capped at 130 seconds on -hard. Not even close to 100 seconds.</li> - <li>2048: once you get the trick, you can pass it infinity times.</li> - <li>Patience: although I have little patience, I play patience. If I -got stuck, I just redeal.</li> - <li>Minecraft: still I was constantly killed by myself using custom -potions.</li> - <li>sequels of BTD: these games suck and lags a lot.</li> - <li>chrome://dino: not really playable. I don't know what the fifth -digit of the score is for because I can literally see nothing after reaching -2400.</li> -</ul> -<h2 id="tocanch3" class="tvis">Finally...</h2> -<p> - All of these leads to my current situation: I still play those -"playable" games. For example I can reach round 100 in BMC with a level 35 -city on most maps with ease and I can get to 4096 in 2048 without much -effort, but I always suffer from a strong feeling of voidness -<a id="n2" href="#note2" class="note">[2]</a> - after stopping playing. I am unsure about the source of such feeling, but -it is definitely related to playing games. The feeling is so strong that I -often stuck for hours before I can actually start getting my jobs done. -</p> -<p> - Probably due to the fear of creating more voidness, I refuse to learn -playing a new game. Also I am gradually losing interest in the games I am -still playing. This could be concerning because once I lost interest in -every game I may be bored to death. All I can do now is to hope that I -would have developed other interests to entertain myself then. -</p> -<h2 id="tocanch4" class="tvis">The Touhou project and Clumsy me cont'd</h2> -<p> - I came across this when I was in junior high school. At that time I -thought this was merely girls shooting unknown substance while avoiding -other unknown substance coming in all directions. -</p> -<p> - Later I found the music of this series interesting and started actually -playing it. Before long I started adoring those cute <a id="n3" href="#note3" class="note">[3]</a> characters as well. -I changed my wallpapers on all my devices to pictures of those characters -so that I can see them everywhere. Also I my favourite playlists were -replaced by the in-game music. -</p> -<p> - But all of these can't hide the fact that I suck at this game. I can't -play through the Normal difficulty of most releases, some not even the Easy -difficulty. This is probably due to some erroneous mechanics of my control -system -- sometimes when my intent was to press a certain key, I may press -another one instead. <a id="n4" href="#note4" class="note">[4]</a>Strangely this happens only when -I am playing games, it seldom happens when I am typing. Just in case you -are wondering, I type faster than most Chinese computer users, at around -330 cpm or 66 wpm. However this doesn't help me become a decent gamer. -</p> -<p> -What makes everything even worse is that I've got heart disease, making it -impossible for me to play any games that require high tension or may -cause great excitement. These games may really harm me. -</p> -<p> -Any advice on how to fix me is highly appreciated. -</p> -</article> -</div><br><hr> - <div class="TText" id="notediv" style="font-size:80%;"><span class="TText"><a id="note1" href="#n1">[1]</a>: lit. "Magic Tower", an RPG game<br></span><span class="TText"><a id="note2" href="#n2">[2]</a>: Something like extreme boredom, but not exactly.<br></span><span class="TText"><a id="note3" href="#n3">[3]</a>: In a oriental -way -- a Japonic way to be more specific <br></span><span class="TText"><a id="note4" href="#n4">[4]</a>: Also applicable to mouse clicks. When I try -to activate a certain ability in BTD, I may find myself dying just because -I was hitting the wrong button.<br></span></div> - <div id="insanch" style="height:3em;"></div> - <div id="footer" style=""> - <div id="pagesw" class="TText" style="width:100%;height:0.5em;"></div> - <div style="text-align:center;" class="TText"> - Proudly powered by SSBS <reduced style="font-size:70%;">(the static stupid blogging system)</reduced> 2.5 - <br> - Content licensed under CC BY-SA 4.0. <span id="purgep" style="display:none;font-size:70%;">This page has passphrase(s) stored. 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